Feeling Better

Well, I still have alot on my mind, but I am feeling better!

I have to just remember that average is OK, because when I look around I realize that there are lots of people who would probably be thrilled with average! I don't mean that as a put-down, really, I just think it's true.

I see pettiness and greed and back-stabbing and false friendships all around. And I feel really good about myself that I don't resort to that type of behavior! I'm a really straight-forward kind of girl. What you see is what you get. And what you hear is the honest truth. I don't go out of my way to be brutally honest if it's going to hurt someone, but I don't lie or give false compliments. I get along well with everyone I work with, but I don't buddy up to them if I really don't like them very much. See, I figure it IS my job to get along with my co-workers for the sake of job we're here to do. I don't really think that's being two-faced, do you? Because if I told some people what I really thought of them, I'd be in SOOOO much trouble. Maybe even fired! ; ) So I guess I do keep some things to myself...but it's more of a professionalism thing. (Can you tell there is a lot of BS going on right now at work? LOL)

But anyway, I guess I've realized that while I might not have some of the amazing abilities that I envy in others, I do have one thing going for me: I really believe I'm a good person. I certainly have faults, but everyone does.

Here are a few things I like about myself:
:: I am a loyal friend
:: I really DO enjoy giving. (I like receiving too, but I get so much joy from giving!)
:: I try to always give compliments when I really like/am impressed with something
:: I try to cheer others when they are down
:: I work hard to be the best Mom I can be
:: I strive to be a good wife (and according to Kenneth I am. He's the only one that counts on this one!)
:: I am a good listener
:: I try to be a positive influence on those around me. (Obviously I'm not always!)

OK, that took a little while to come up with! Why is it so hard to think positively about yourself and so darn easy to be negative? Oh well, that's life, I suppose!

Anyway, I'm back on my way to happiness. Much further away from the black hole, so to speak, than for the past several days. Wish me luck! : )