Monday, October 31

Good Weekend...kinda

Friday afternoon: Well, the eye doctor's office was maybe three degrees cooler than hell, but Ashleigh did OK until we got stuck in the exam room for about 45 minutes. I finally started walking the hall with her and when the nurses notices, I asked if there was a back door we could so we could step outside for a few minutes to cool off because it was about 95 in the exam room. They turned on the air-too little too late. Anyway, they are supposed to call me with a surgery date, but they also have to get my insurance info straight. The lady politely informed me I'd have to pay $600 up front because we'd met NONE of her deductible. I DON'T THINK SO. We've met $1,418.27 of her $1,500 deductible, to be exact. Called and confirmed that with BC/BS this morning, waiting to hear back from the doctor's office.

Friday evening: Did a little shopping, then went to see my friend Angela's house, and meet her friend Lee Ann. The house is really nice, even though they are still in the "move-in" process! Angela had crocheted a nice little green afghan for Ashleigh and fed me some yummy chili. Ashleigh loved the puppy too.

Saturday: Cranky baby. Still-feeling-terrible hubby. The Taylor house isn't really a happy house today. Went to our neice's first birthday party, that was nice. But she was getting sick, didn't feel well. Ashleigh perked up and had a good time. Went to buy groceries afterwards, by myself and that took forever, but now we have food!

Sunday: My parents came to visit and that's always great. I have to say my Mom made the best roast I've ever eaten in my entire life!!!! I'm sad there is hardly any left. Ashleigh varied from super-cute to super-cranky. I told my parents they could take her home with them (yeah, RIGHT!) and I think she would have went! Was up most of the night with her crying. Blah!

Monday: BACK TO THE DOCTOR. I'm getting really tired of this, let me tell you. She was supposed to be WELL by today, not marginally (maybe) better. He said I did the right thing bringing her back in, but that is was just taking a little longer than expected. Still no shot, which I was secretly hoping for. Said to keep her on the antibiotic she's already taking. No trick-or-treating (got permission to go to the grandparents though!) and stay away from kids for a week. Thank GOD she isn't in daycare!

I have weekend pics and will have a few from tonight. She WILL dress up, even if it's for 5 minutes! Will try to post them tomorrow!

Friday, October 28

Today is the day...

that I'll most likely be scheduling eye surgery for Ashleigh. We've waited about as long as we can for her tear duct to open up on it's own. The "less invasive" procedure is highly effective before age one, and success declines dramatically afterward. Of course, the "procedure" involves putting my baby to sleep, so I'm not really looking forward to it. But I'm so tired of her little eye being constantly watery and often gunky. So I actually dread the time spent in the waiting room more than what is to come. At least at the pediatrician's office, they are all kids. She will probably be the only child in this waiting room, and from previous experience, I'm expecting to be there awhile. . My "good mommy" side wants to keep her as behaved as possible; but my bad side is tempted to let her be a little hellian so we'll be seen faster. Then again, when I think she's being bad, most people think she's being good! So that idea probably wouldn't get me too far....

Have a pretty good weekend ahead:
Saturday is my niece, Elana's, first birthday party. Just can't believe she'll turn one tomorrow! Have to pick up a gift this afternoon. Sunday my parents are coming to visit. I always love it when they come to see us. Well, they mostly come to see Ashleigh, but that's OK. I'm happy she is blessed with two sets of grandparents who love her so much.

Well, better get busy since I'm leaving work early today! (After I get my paycheck, woo hoo!!!)

Thursday, October 27

Know your farts...and let 'em rip!

NOT what I expected to hear in the waiting room of the pediatrician's office yesterday, but hear it I did.

{Yes, the doctor. Again. Ashleigh started sounding "croupy" late Tuesday evening and was terrible by Wednesday morning. So we had to see Dr. Odom again. She has the croup, but we caught it early and is already doing better. She slept well last night, that cough medicine kicks butt!}

Back to the fart story:

Their tv was tuned to Nickelodeon, and I wasn't really paying attention until I heard this phrase: "determines the smell of your flatulence." OK, now you have my full attention. This little piece was explaining how different foods produce different farts. For example, meats and eggs produce "silent but deadly" gas emissions. It also explained that farting was a sign of a healthy digestive system. It ended by saying "Know your farts...and let 'em rip!" I swear, it was like a Mad TV skit.

This undermined years of manners training by Moms across the country. It also let mischevious kids know what to eat for maximum effect! I'm sure there was a good intention behind this, but I'm not sure it really came across that way!

Tuesday, October 25

What In The HELL Is This?

When Aimee told us there was nothing to see at the movies this week (doing an ad for the theaters) she then told us what was playing. Matt and I didn't believe her, especially when she said there was a movie called Thumbsucker. But there really is. I think of all the good causes, like the Taylor Family ; ) this money could have gone toward, but instead this movie was made.

I think the actors in this movie all lost a horrible bet and that's why they are in it. Click the link above. You'll see what I mean.

OR if you think this is/will be a good movie, convince me. I still won't go see it, but you can try...

Super Busy

We are totally swamped today at work, so this will be short and sweet!

Can't believe I forgot this in my weekend update: Ashleigh stood alone for several seconds quite a few times Sunday afternoon! (This IS a big deal.)

I'm feeling not nearly as yucky as yesterday, thank God. Hopefully this trend will continue...

Now, I've got a question:
I'm considering doing a smaller 3-4 foot Christmas tree this year that I can put on a piece of furniture. Because with our regular tree (which I don't like anyway, it's too small for our living room-it's only 6 1/2 feet tall) I have NO way to keep Ashleigh away from it. It addition to the pain in the butt of constantly playing defense, I have to worry about her choking on ornaments, getting tangled in the Christmas lights and even pulling the entire thing down on top of her. I'd have other decorations around the house as well. Do you think this is OK? Next year will still be a pain with her wanting to bother the tree, but she'll be 2 years old and have a little bit more comprehension that she can look but not touch. Just let me know if this is a practical but still holiday-minded idea, or if I'm being a humbug. Because I don't want to be a humbug!

Monday, October 24

Our Weekend...


Looking Out
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

wasn't a total bust, but it sure could have been better!

Kenneth felt bad all weekend and I started feeling bad Sunday. YUCK. My throat hurts today AND I have a headache. A co-worker says it is strep throat, but I think it's just allergies/sinus trouble. (Hope with me that I'm right!)

I snapped this photo yesterday afternoon when we SHOULD have been at my company's picnic. Really hated missing the chance to show off my daughter (LOL) but we just didn't feel like going. She had such a great time looking out our sliding glass door. {I cropped the photo in this weird fashion to show that my entire house is not that brown paneling you see in the living room-the rest is colorful!}

FUNNY MOMENT: Kenneth was taking off his belt and Ashleigh said "Uh-Oh!" We thought it was hilarious, although she has a long time before she has to worry about the belt!

She Loves Shoes


She Loves Shoes
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Last Wednesday when I was getting Ashleigh ready for her second doctor appointment of the week, I was going to put these little white tennis shoes on her, and she was having none of that! She wanted a different pair, but loved playing with this one so much, I let her while I got our things together. Of course, I had to snap a few pics to document the occasion!

I wish it was always this easy to be happy!

Friday, October 21

Almost there!

That's right, it's almost time to call it a day on Friday! No big plans this weekend, just cleaning (maybe) the house and hanging out with Ashleigh and Kenneth. Still feeling run-down and blah, hope I'm not getting sick. I don't have the time or money for that!

The company picnic is this Sunday afternoon, still not sure if we're going. I really wanted to, if for nothing else to show off my daughter. (Shameless I know, but I'm nothing if not honest!) The thing is that this medicine she is on, well, it has made certain things really messy and hard to contain when they happen. Like giving her a quick bath is usually necessary. If you don't get what I mean, you're probably better off. Don't really want to deal with THAT out in public!

OH! and I need to hook up the printer my Daddy gave me almost TWO WEEKS AGO!! I just don't have the time or energy during the week and with Ashleigh getting sick last weekend....oh well. If I got everything done, what would I do? LOL!

Have a great weekend!

Thursday, October 20

Cute


scrapbooking
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Kenneth sent this to me the other day, thought I'd share it. Don't feel much like blogging...what's wrong with me?!?

Nothing's wrong, just tired--feeling kinda blah. I did get to sleep all night in my bed last night with Kenneth, and Ashleigh was safely tucked away in her bed. Whew! She slept really well, let's hope the trend continues.

OH! That cute little brown dog I posted the other day died. So sad, he was a sweetie. But at least I don't have to explain it to our daughter.

Wednesday, October 19

Getting Better

Ashleigh is well on the road to recovery! She got a good report from the doctor this morning, after entertaining everyone in the waiting room for about 30 minutes. She still has a bit of a runny nose, but the fever seems to be gone, and her appetite is back. Her blood work did show a slight iron deficiency, so we're to start her on a vitamin after we finish her antibiotics.

She actually went to sleep last night easily, IN HER BED, about 9:15. She woke up around 11 though, and I think she would have went right back to sleep in her bed after I consoled her. BUT I was so out of it that I just picked her up and got in Kenneth's recliner with her. We both went back to sleep and obviously slept very well, because I didn't know a thing until the alarm clock went off this morning! AND I got to sleep late since her app't was at 9:45. YAY!!!! Another night or two of decent sleep, I might actually start feeling good again!

WORDS OF WISDOM:
Heard this on a show Kenneth was watching the other night: "Put your big girl panties on and deal with it!"
Love that....

Monday, October 17

Poor Baby

Well, that fever stuck around all weekend and we went to see the doctor this morning. Of couse, she didn't HAVE a fever at the doctor's office, but it was back in full force before we got home!

She has an upper respiratory infection, which appears to be bacterial, because of an elevated white blood cell count. She got a shot, and starts and antibiotic tomorrow. He told me about some pills that will help with her upset tummy, hopefully allowing her to eat. They aren't a prescription, but you have to go through all the trouble you do with a prescription. A snooty woman behind the counter informed me that they cost over about a $1 a pill. I asked her if I looked like I couldn't afford $10 for my baby's medicine! (I had next to no sleep last night. That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it!) That wasn't the end of me "showing my butt" at the prescription counter, but I'll just leave it at that...

She's drinking a little more this afternoon, according to my mother-in-law, so that's a great sign! She didn't drink 10 oz. in all day Saturday & Saturday night combined!

Wish me luck for some sleep tonight! Ashleigh will NOT be sleeping in our bed. She did last night, she was either on top of me (literally draped across me) or flopping around like a fish out of water! I'll take the recliner over that, if she won't sleep in her bed.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, October 15

First Haircut


New Haircut
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

{There are more photos after this post, be sure to scroll down}

Well, the haircut portion of our day was successful! (I have pictures of the actual haircut-you'll see those later on a scrapbook page. She just looks alot happier in this photo) Priscilla did a great job and was really sweet. We saved a lock of her hair and got a certificate. It's cute and among other things, proclaims that Ashleigh has successfully graduated from babyhood. Not too crazy about that idea, but I fear it's true.

We spent a couple more hours in Columbus before heading to the much anticipated Pumpkin Patch extravaganza. (That last word's just for you, Kelley!) That was a disappointment. We didn't even get our of our truck; we just turned around and left. The pumpkin patch looked all weedy and there was no cute anything anywhere for taking photos. Maybe I was just expecting too much.... But we drove around and tried to visit a few of his old friends but they weren't home.

After visiting Kenneth's parents, we came home. Ashleigh hadn't seemed to feel really well all day and about 5:00, after a late nap (I know, I know....)I checked her temp and it was 103.4! Gave her some Motrin, but wasn't too worried because she was just playing away, having a great time. She seemed to feel the best she'd felt all day. Weird, huh? I think maybe it's just a little cold or something like that.

OH! The cutest thing happened a few minutes ago: I heard her talking in her sleep over the baby monitor. (And yes, I'm sure she's asleep.) But I'm not sure how long she'll stay that way, so I better get to bed myself...

Learning to Drive?


Learning to Drive?
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Saturday afternoon when we stopped by to see Kenneth's parents they were outside. Kenneth thought it'd be cute to get a few shots of Ashleigh sitting in her Papaw's jeep, and I think he was right!

Brownie


Brown Dog
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Some of you have heard about this dog, thought I'd show you a photo. My father-in-law brought him home a while back and Ashleigh just loves him. Some mornings when I drop her off I can barely hold on to her, she gets so excited when she sees him.

One of my favorite sights...


Happy Home
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

is to see Kenneth and Ashleigh together, having a good time.

I took this Thursday evening when I got in from work, but I see a similar sight almost every day when I arrive.

I'm so thankful I chose to marry a man who loves our daughter as much as I do and strives to be a great Daddy.

Kenneth and I both have wonderful parents who have always loved and supported us, so I believe that by giving Ashleigh the same love and support we will give her a good foundation to build her life on.

Friday, October 14

New Haircut


New Haircut
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

OK. I pretty much hate photos of myself, but have needed to take one so Kelley could see my new haircut AND to go on my "friendship tags." It seems like every time I have a good hair day, I forget a photo. And when I think about it, I'm not having a good hair day. Grrr.........

I figured today wasn't really good or bad, but I need to get these things done! And my haircut isn't really "new" anymore, it's two weeks old!

New Neighbors...


New Neighbors...
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

We've been getting a kick out of these folks for the past week or so. They live near my brother & sister-in-law and I drive past every day on the way to work.

Yesterday, Phillip & I rode together and he stopped so I could get this photo.

I'm sure these are really nice people. But we just can't believe that they are living in this tiny camper. And are apparently here for the long haul. Note the satellite tv dish on the right. And their night light. Do you see the little rooster yard art? Phillip's favorite is the ultra-portable fence. I think I like the way they have their little fence decorated for fall.

And just to answer a potential question: no, this is not in an RV park or anything similar. It's next to someone's house.

Just thought I'd share something that's had us smiling all week!

Thursday, October 13

Where is the weekend?

Sorry I haven't been really posting, we are just swamped at work!

Rachel's daughter, Caiden, made it through surgery really well yesterday and now has a pulmonary artery! She had a good night last night and should be taken off the ventilator today. Rachel sounded great on the phone last night. I can't even imagine how she handles all this, but she does.

Things are well at the Taylor house. Some nights Ashleigh sleeps like a rock, others she doesn't. I honestly just thing it's partly teething and partly that she's getting older and wants to stay up and play. Or maybe doesn't need quite as much sleep. She isn't napping a whole lot during the day, so that's not it. And she's not cranky like she's overly tired. And for those of you who mentioned it, she was actually on Zantac for several months when she was younger. Thank GOD for that stuff is all I've got to say! But, even the night she doesn't sleep well aren't as bad as they were the last time, so we'll get through. (Like we have a choice!)

Must get back to work, tons of ads to do!

OH!! Remember the client I was wishing explosive diarrhea on? I got an e-mail from that individual thanking for my patience, etc. OOOHHHH MAN! If that person only knew!

If I haven't commented on your blog recently and usually do, I'll catch up soon, I promise!

Wednesday, October 12

You've Been Mooned!


Witch Booty
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

OK, OK....I know it isn't Halloween YET, but this was in the tail-end (pun intended) of an e-mail from a friend and I just had to share!

Tuesday, October 11

Rachel

For those of you who know Rachel, she's asked me to update her blog while she's in Cleveland for Caiden's surgery. The first update will be posted in a few minutes...

My sweet 10-month-old


10 Months Close Up
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

I think this is my favorite. I know it's not her usual grin, but this is her happy, relaxed face. Just so sweet. Then again, I'm a little biased!

She was really a joy this weekend. So perfectly well-behaved. It made me proud. Especially since we drove 80 miles to my parents house, then about 20 minutes later drove another 30 to go shopping. Then all day in and out of stores. She finally gave up about 2:00 and I had to carry her around the last 20 or so minutes of our last stop.

Then she loved playing with her granparents, Aunt Cory and Uncle Josh. And her Mommy! She even slept well!

Sunday, I even let her go to the nursery during church. I was proud of ME on that one.

It was a great weekend that ended too soon.

Oh, did I mention I got a migraine Sunday night? That was just GREAT! I'll skip the gory details, but I was home yesterday, in the bed until about 3pm. Blah! But I'm back now!!! Look out!

Pretty Little Dress


10 Months Old
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

My Mom bought this dress for Ashleigh Saturday during our shopping trip. I just think it's so sweet and makes my baby look like a little girl. I realized this weekend that Ashleigh is now a toddler...not sure I'm ready for that!

Making a get-away


Crawling Away
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

She couldn't decide which way to go! But she knew she was missing out on some quality exploring time by sitting there letting me take her picture!

What's This?


What's On My Foot
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

It's pretty. I wonder if it tastes good...

Enough already!


Tired of photos
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

I think this was her "hint" that she was ready to end the photo shoot! ;0)

Poor little eye


Ashleigh with Mommy
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Some of you know about Ashleigh's clogged tear duct. It's not a huge deal and it doesn't seem to bother her much at all. But on days like Sunday when it's all red and irritated it just breaks my heart! But we go back to the eye doctor on the 21st and I'm going to go ahead and schedule the procedure to have it opened up. If you wait until after 1 year old, the success rate of the "easy" procedure goes way down and a more invasive procedure must be done. I'm just ready to have a baby that doesn't look teary-eyed most of the time!

Friday, October 7

Is it wrong...


angry
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

to wish explosive diarrhea on someone?

I've been told it was, but it doesn't feel wrong at all!

I've been dealing with a difficult client for over a week. Difficult meaning crazy, idiotic moron. And this morning I realized she's blind! I sent her a TOTALLY different photo in an ad and she thinks it's the same one. It just totally set me off. I've been seething for almost an hour. That's after I threw a big ole hissy fit. Rachel came running back here with a Prozac and practically shoved it down my throat. LOL.

I need to let it go. I need to rise above.

What I really want to do is smack that psycho bitch with a stick.

I'll try deep breaths. In with happiness, out with anger.

Not working.

I'll put on my headphones and listen to a little Dane Cook. He is freakin' hilarious.

And I'll look forward to visiting my family this weekend; going shopping with my Mom, sister and Ashleigh. We haven't done that in a long time. Never with Ashleigh along. Hope you guys have a good weekend!

Thursday, October 6

Sleep Wars


sleep problem
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

OK, I don't know what was different Tuesday night that made Ashleigh sleep well, but whatever that X factor was, it was missing last night.

Kenneth finally got her to sleep a little after 10, because I just gave up trying. (Thanks, sweetie!!) But maybe 30 minutes later, she was awake crying and screaming. I got in the recliner with her and we were both back to sleep soon. When she started wiggling and "really" woke me up I put her back in her bed, then stumbled to ours and saw it was almost 5 am!!! So I'm a little stiff and sore from sleeping practically all night in a chair.

Nothing appears to be wrong with her during the day. I really don't want to go to the doctor just to be told that this is part of life: deal with it. Then again, if something iswrong and I don't take her, I'll feel really bad.

Grrr........

Guilty confession: Last night, I wished that I could give her something to just knock her out. Like Benadryl or something. Valium, anyone? (just joking. About the Valium. I think.)

Wednesday, October 5

Finally...some sleep!

Ashleigh only woke up briefly once last night...thank GOD! It was nice to get some sleep for a change. Especially since I had to get up extra early this morning! My brother-in-law and I have decided to carpool a couple of days a week. He has to be at work at 7am, so I was at the office this morning about 6:45. YIKES!!!! I had my makeup and blowdryer in tow to get ready. No way could I do all THAT and leave my house by 6am. I was all proud of myself for being on time to his house, especially since Ash woke up at 5:30. And he was running late! Oh well, that's OK.

Had a nice evening...no cooking, we had leftovers. And Kenneth was gone for awhile, so Ashleigh and I had a girl's night. Nice and relaxing for a change.

Here's my deep thought for the day: What goes around comes around. I believe that and that's what helps me get through the day sometimes.

OK, not too deep of a thought, I suppose. But hey, it's early!

Tuesday, October 4

So tired...

All I want to do is go to sleep and stay asleep for quite a while.

Why? you might ask. Well, for some unknown reason, the past several nights my daughter has NOT been sleeping well. She goes to bed about 8 and usually snoozes fairly well for maybe a couple of hours. Then she starts tossing and turning. Then whining. Then crying and screaming. This goes on for quite a while, like MOST OF THE NIGHT. Then she might sleep from about 4:30 or 5 until 6 or 6:30. Ugh.

I know it's just part of being a parent and while the lack of sleep IS a pain, I wonder what is causing the problem. She is happy and wonderful all through the day. She even wakes up (for the day) in a happy mood. I even called the pediatrician's office this morning out desperation!! The nurse suggested giving her Tylenol right before bed, which makes sense, because she sounds like she's hurting. And the gas drops aren't helping this time : ( believe me I've tried that. After she suggested Tylenol, I felt like an idiot. Then again, being able to think of anything at 2am when you are dealing with a screaming child is a great feat.

I just hate not knowing what's up. So tonight she'll get the full treatment: Tylenol (or Motrin, it lasts longer!), gas drops and teething tablets or Orajel. I'll try to cover all the bases. And if anyone has any suggestions or theories on what might be wrong, PLEASE let me know! Because many more nights of 3 hours of sleep, I will become a danger to myself and others!

Monday, October 3

Keep on scrollin'!

I've posted quite a bit this morning. I got all my posts ready over the weekend so I could quickly upload them this morning during my "smoke break."

So be sure to keep scrollin' so you don't miss anything.

Thanks!

Scrapbook Saturday


Nine Months Old
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

Saturday was such a fun day. Pam, Rachel came to scrapbook and it made me realize how much I miss our monthly “scrap days.” We haven’t had one in.....gosh....before I got pregnant, I know. WAY too long...

Caiden, Clay, Kristen (Evie’s daughter) and Ashleigh had fun too. The older kids watched a few movies and Ashleigh just played with anyone and everyone. She was pretty darn good and that made me proud.

I spent a good deal of time organizing my fibers & ribbons and did one page while they were here. Pam and Rachel got several done each. Rachel got Kenneth to help her with one! He was such good sport about having a house full of women and kids.

After Ashleigh went to bed I got three more pages done. Woo hoo!!!

Let me know what you think of them.

Beautiful


Beautiful
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

This is probably my favorite LO from Saturday, I guess because it's so simple. I'm all about simple these days! This is a scraplift from Shannon Tidwell off 2Peas.

And I just want to say I'm LOVING my corner rounder lately! Don't know why I have this sudden fascination with it, I've had it for years...

Pretty Fashionista


Pretty Fashionista
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

First of all, when I scanned these pages in, my itsy bitsy scanner chopped off edges, so just imagine it's all there!

I know that there are a ton of photos on this LO, but I wanted a way to get lots of the "outfit shots" I've taken over the months. Can you imagine how many scrapbooks I'd have of her first year if I only did a couple of pics per LO on each LO?

Going anywhere she wants


4 wheel drive 10-1
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

In the past couple of weeks, Ashleigh has realized that she has "four wheel drive" capabilities. Saturday she had great fun crawling around under the dining room table; that's usually a restricted area!

Kenneth did this


Bow in hair 9-30
Originally uploaded by Sunshyn93.

to our poor daughter! They were outside when I got home Friday and as soon as I started up the driveway, I could see her hair sticking straight up! I just laughed and laughed. He fusses at me for putting stuff on her head/in her hair, and he does this!

She definitely needs hair accessories to keep all that hair out of her eyes, but I'm not too crazy about this look!

Why does she have to hurt?

{11:34 pm Saturday--just put Ashleigh back to bed. This might be another blog entry I never post...yeah, I do that pretty often...}

About 11, Ash woke up crying. With a tummy ache. Luckily, a few gas drops and laying on her tummy on top of me were all it took to comfort her. After a few minutes of wimpering and hitched breathing (from all the crying) she settled down. It broke my heart for her to hurt, then it hit me:

This is easy.

The hard stuff is yet to come.

When friends turn out not to be friends at all.

When people do or say thoughtless things and hurt her feelings.

When boys break her heart.

Every time she is reminded that life isn’t fair.

How do we comfort her then? I wish she would never experience those things, but she must. I think back on all the “bad”things that have happened to me and realize they made me the person I am today. She’ll have to go through that too. And while Kenneth and I will want to always defend her and bring the wrath of God on anyone who hurts her in any way; we must not. We will have to let her fight her own battles and try not to tell her how to handle things. Unless she asks for advice.

How do we give her the skills she needs to handle life? How do we instill the values we hold dear while letting her become her own person? How do we manage not to totally mess her up?

Why am I not sleepy so I can go to bed and stop totally freaking out about all this? : )

I suppose the answer is to take it as it comes and do the best we can...